What I'm NOT Talking About

I haven't been talking, at least not here, and that needs to be rectified.

I lost a grand total of 4 pounds while I wasn't weighing for Lent. Which is probably a lie, because I was doing pretty awesome pre-gallbladder surgery. And the post op recuperative time has me losing my mind, and gaining  some weight. I'm not proud of this, or the fact that I've abandoned #TwitterDiet AND MyFitnessPal AND drinking water.

I'm not going all woe is me here, and discussing the other things that are stressing me out (needing a full time job/bills that need to be paid/etc).

I'm holding me responsible. And I'm being honest, and hating mostly every minute of it.

In about 2 and a half weeks (the end of the post op 6 weeks) I'm going to start doing Zumba at home a couple of times a week to start out.  I will take some (more) "before" pictures. I'm really getting excited about this Christmas, because I REFUSE to look/feel the same as I did last Christmas (obtuse and unhealthy).

I'm thinking about May, planning for the future instead of focusing on the now.  I'm thinking about drinking only water in May, as in not drinking cokes (sodas/pops) and drinking water.  I'm not ready for any kind of fasting, especially only water fasting.  Don't be crazy yall.

But I haven't decided 100%, or if that's going to be all I'll be doing.

My Ex

You may remember in my last post that I vowed not to weigh myself for Lent, and to work on toning up my arms, and getting in all sixty-four ounces of water per day? Yeah... that post.  Well I'm hating that post.
Not because at the bottom is my 'before' picture (and that picture is the go to picture when you post a link) no, that's not the reason I hate it.

I hate it because I'm not weighing myself, because I'm attempting to keep my word (it's kind of a big deal for me). In 2011 I didn't use a scale. I detested the scale as much as it detested me, and I know it did because the numbers it showed me were detestable! But when I started this healthy lifestyle make over of 2012, I started using the scale. I started to measure everything by the scale. "Oh you remember that really great time we had on the day I weighed in uber light, right before I gained back the weight I'd lost because of my least favorite week? YEAH! That day."

I even had a habit formed (already!) that included weighing myself. First thing at work, get the paper, empty the bedside commode, weigh, continue with day. But now..

Now I find myself giving the bathroom with the scale sidelong glances. I force myself to look away. I think of it fondly, only remembering the positive parts of our relationship (you know, my weightLOSSES).

It reminds me, quite acurately, of breaking up with a boyfriend.  I only want to remember the positive parts.  I forget all the stupid fights (and weight gains).  I don't remember the late night crying on the phone (or eating the last of the ice cream). I just remeber good, solid hugs (and weight losses). 

I avoid rooms that give the scale a home. I don't want to fall off this wagon, it's entirely too early. However I do miss seeing the numbers (and having a measurable progress), I'm stickin to it!


Happy Lenten  Season Yall!!



PS- I've been doing (almost) decently at drinking enough water, however my exercise has taken a huge hit.  I hope to start going to atleast one Zumba a week in March and using some of the machines afterwards for more of an upper body work out.

PPS- You should totally be following my on Twitter!

Fit For Lent #LentPlans

If you follow me on Twitter (@TeresasTalking) you already know I have had some ideas and plans floating around and simmering for what to do for the Lenten season.  All are in keeping with my main objective to be healthier (and hopefully thinner) by the end of the year.

First FFL idea- No weighing in (for forty days.) I'm trying to learn success in other measurable ways, and I don't want to be tied to a scale for the rest of my existence. So I'm trying to learn how to be healthy without it. Plus can you imagine the weight sticker shock when I finally weigh in on the Monday after Easter? (Can we say AMAZING results. Atleast that's the goal!)

Second FFL idea- Focus (no cardio) workouts on the arms. I have awkwardly flabby arms. And with the small amount of weight I've already lost they're looking extra saggy. Adn saggy, ex-flabby arms do not a cute Teresa make!

Third FFL idea- Drink 64oz of water a day. I did really great at this in January, and slowly slacked off. Time to rev that engine back up.

FINAL FFL idea-  Before and After pics! I'm posting my befores tonight (like rightnow inthispost). And I'll repost those befores with the afters (probably the Monday or Tuesday after Easter).  

These forty days are going to be interesting and I sure hope that I can follow through. I know all my #TwitterDiet people will be watching out for me and pushing me to succeed. I hope you all will call me out if you see any misbehavin as well..

Happy Fat Tuesday!!